Senseless Emotion

Sometimes, I feel emotions that have nothing to do with my environment.  I feel unconditionally and irrationally sad or happy or frustrated or afraid or excited.  Like right now. I took three tests today, two of which were finals, and didn’t do spectacularly on any of them. Because I spent the day studying by myself, I hardly talked to anyone.  I feel like I should feel super depressed and angsty, but I’m actually rather happy.  I have no idea why.

I do find that two things can change my emotion (usually for the better) on a rather consistent basis.  They can at least temporarily counteract this strange phenomenon I experience.  Those two things are music and people.

Music almost always changes my emotion, especially if what I feel nearly matches what the song expresses.  Even when it doesn’t, I still adjust to the song – happy, upbeat, fast paced songs will still make me feel excited and optimistic even when I am lethargic and melancholy.  However, if I feel frustrated or hurt, songs that reflect selfishness and enduring through the pains of life have a much greater effect on me.  Music rarely makes me feel bad about myself, though.  Usually it makes me feel like I must be strong and brave to face all the pain and adversity I do in life, or else simply happy to be alive.

Other people can cheer me up too.  If I spend time with others, especially friends, I can forget myself and instead be involved in their successes and problems.  I think this is one of the reasons extroverts are usually happier than introverts – because they spend so much time with others they forget their own setbacks and therefore have a more cheerful attitude.

But there are times, like now, where it seems little can affect my emotion.  All rational causes of what I might feel seem like they ought to make me break down or even cry, but instead I’m smiling.  What is wrong with me?

–Brandon

3 comments

  1. You really make it seem so easy with your presentation but I find this topic to be really something that I think I would never understand. It seems too complicated and very broad for me. I am looking forward for your next post, I’ll try to get the hang of it!

  2. Hello there! This blog post could not be written any better! Looking at this post reminds me of my previous roommate! He continually kept talking about this. I am going to send this post to him. Pretty sure he will have a good read. I appreciate you for sharing!

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